Hello and welcome to the 2nd episode (blog) of Away with Sad where I try and do things that I need to do in order to keep living and hopefully also find some happiness along the way.
Today I decided I wanted to craft! Something I should be more successful at than making bread...which was a huge failure the other day.
I knew I wanted to make something with items I already have lying around the house, so I did some research into cardboard crafts. I was able to find inspiration from this Rainbow pen holder i found on Autodesk Instructables and decided to make a pumpkin version!
I gathered everything I needed:
- cardboard
- pencil
- cutter
- hot glue
- paint
and got to work!
I started to film the whole thing; drawing a perfect pumpkin from memory (I know, super impressive), cutting it out and utilizing the cut out pumpkin to trace the second one. Then I worked through how to make the internal structure to hold it all together. I was able to cut two pieces that were absolutely perfectly measured without measuring (girl math for the win) and a bottom piece that would pull it all together.
I wanted to pause and check how my recording was going so far and what I found...was horrible. My video stopped recording. It missed EVERYTHING. All of the drawing, cutting, non-measuring, the witty banter with myself, ALL. OF. IT.
I wanted to cry. Not only did I think that I would be able to make an amazing craft, I thought it would be an easy edit/record session. I really needed this especially after my bread turned out horribly (I'm still blaming the secret book yeast). I took a deep breath and started again. Showing what I had already done and moving onto the gluing of the structure.
I was able to glue one side and then I heard *beeep*. The recording stopped again. WHY?! WHY ME?!?
Turns out I didn't have any more storage left on my phone. Wish it would have told me that prior to starting again, but whatever. Finally we figured something out. I deleted a bunch of BS and then went back to recording. I finished gluing the whole thing and wanted to take a break and see what I actually had filmed. Turns out, it STOPPED AGAIN.
I'm sorry, did I not delete enough shit for you the first time?! SO I deleted more garbage and got progressively more frustrated.
When you're already not in a great headspace, it really sucks when there are slight set backs. It really just ruined the entire thing for me....but I wanted to press on.
I hit record again and explained what occurred. I was transparent and showed me having a mini crash out on camera...I want to be real with this series, so I'm gonna keep it in.
I moved onto base painting the pen holder in white so the colors will really pop. At this point, after finishing the base paint, I had hit my limit. I couldn't do this anymore. I missed so much content and I was sad. I took some time to regulate.
I decided I was going to keep what I had and make a Part 1 and 2. First part is going to show all of my failures and I want to highlight them, especially the frustration. I want to make it humorous. That's the best way I know how to keep going, even when I just want to quit and cry, curled up on the floor.
So that's what I'm going to do, I am going to show everything and try my damnedest to make it funny. As long as I am having a good time, that's what freaking matters.
On to the next, and hopefully we can delete even more crap off my phone so I won't run into this issue again...just all the other issues that are destined to get in my way!
Authors note: I had completely written out this entire blog post, went to edit the video for a bit, came back and added a photo...the blog got deleted. This is just not my freaking day.